For the past few months, I felt like I was hitting a wall in my love life, business and with my family. It was one challenge after another. I had a number of meltdowns moving to a new apartment in the midst of quarantine was also a nightmare.
I desperately wanted to reinvent myself.
I was ready to start over. Time for new beginnings. But how? Nothing I did seemed to get me further in my personal or professional life. I was stuck and couldn't seem to catch a break.
Gradually, I started to gain clarity by taking the smallest of small steps. I looked around at what was not working and went from there...
Taking tiny baby steps.
If I felt like crying, I allowed myself to weep. If I felt like taking a mid-morning nap, I slept without setting an alarm. If I felt like eating chips for dinner, I did just that.
I gave myself permission to follow the energy. By listening to my body, I was better able to tap into my intuition.
I started journaling and reflecting on tarot cards. Here are just a few of my aha moments while processing how these particular tarot cards applied to my business and personal life:
The next baby step.
Last night I called the apartment security guard to file a noise complaint against my upstairs neighbors. While it may not seem like a big deal, it's a huge step for me. As a people pleaser, I have a hard time speaking up.
I recently moved to the apartment and was woken up several times by their heavy footsteps during the night. My upstairs neighbors are night owls. They are also door slammers. On top of that, they have a very hyper dog running into furniture during the day and well into the night.
It can be very startling when we all are trying to work from home. Occasionally, I woke up to their late night bedroom activities. A few times, I was woken up early in the morning by their bedroom activities too.
For better or worse, I avoid confrontation at all costs.
But as the new neighbor in town, I made an attempt to introduce myself to them in passing. While introducing myself, I also mentioned the noise level.
From their body language, they weren't the type to want to get to know their neighbors, which is fine. Their life, their privacy, their prerogative. They may have picked up my subtle complaint about their noise level but who knows.
After almost four weeks, I couldn't take it anymore and called the security guard to knock on their door. It was 11pm and the stomping was too hard to tune out.
Sometimes the Universe demonstrates impeccable timing.
Of course, I run into one of my neighbors the very next day. Of all the weeks that I've lived in my new apartment, I've only ran into them in passing once. Yet, the one day I didn't want to run into them, I do.
At a distance, I froze a bit, walked the opposite direction and realized I had nowhere else to go. So I had to do a U-turn and backtrack to pass him along the narrow sidewalk.
Even though I had a brief conversation with him in the past, he looked down when passing me. I sensed he was quite upset.
It was very awkward. Immediately, I felt awful even though I had every right to report the noise. I started feeling anxious when thinking that this may be how the rest of my year will be when passing my neighbors in the stairwell, parking lot, etc.
After I threw my cartons in the recycle bin, I found a one dollar bill laying on the grass next to the sidewalk. I took this as a sign that I'm about to enter a new beginning. After all, the number one signifies the start of something new.
The Universe I tell ya. It's always talking to us if we are open to listening.
After some thought, I figured there's a reason why I'm here at this apartment, living in this particular unit, below those particular neighbors. We are all here to learn from each other. I'm learning to speak up for myself.
In an attempt to take better care of my mental and physical health, this small step builds the confidence and momentum for the times when it requires speaking up on larger issues. This includes negotiating contracts, family boundaries and so forth.
By shifting the energy ever so slightly to take care of my needs, I started seeing more opportunities in my business and love life too. I gained clarity in my next project. I also had more bandwidth to try a new dating app.
So here's to the start of new beginnings!
Ready to reinvent yourself? Great, we can hold each other accountable. If you're looking to pivot in your career, start a business, or revamp your love life, I got you covered.
Here are some of the tools that helped me take steps to make the changes I needed in my personal and professional life!
Must-have resources for reinvention:
Starseed Oracle Deck:
The Starseed Oracle is is a great tool for journaling and mediating. It's a breathtaking 53-card oracle deck for starseeds, empaths, lightworkers and seekers.
Starseeds are souls that first incarnated somewhere beyond this planet - many have a sort of 'knowing' from a young age.
Depicting energy portals, ancient sites, faraway planets and star systems, the oracle is otherworldly, literally opening a path to things that cannot be seen with our eyes.
2. Journal with Purpose
Journal with Purpose is the ultimate reference for journaling, packed with over 1000 motifs that you can use to decorate and enhance your bullet or dot journal pages. Copy or trace direct from the page, or follow one of the quick exercises to improve your skills.
Featuring all the journal elements you could wish for – banners, arrows, dividers, scrolls, icons, borders and alphabets – this amazing value book will be a constant source of inspiration for journaling and an 'instant fix' for people who find the more artistic side of journaling a challenge.
3. Brave Enough
Reading this book got me through many dark nights of the soul. Whether reading it on my Kindle or listening to the audio version, I was able to tune out all the outside noise in my life and focus on the wisdom of Cheryl Strayed's words.
From the best-selling author of Wild, a collection of quotes--drawn from the wide range of her writings--that capture her wisdom, courage, and outspoken humor, presented in a gift-sized package that's as irresistible to give as it is to receive.
Around the world, thousands of people have found inspiration in the words of Cheryl Strayed, who in her three prior books and in her "Dear Sugar" columns has shared the twists and trials of her remarkable life.
Her honesty, spirit, and ample supply of tough love have enabled many of us, even in the darkest hours, to somehow put one foot in front of the other--and be brave enough.